Daft

Last night was a blast, I was so full and loaded that I wish I could choked. As I promise, that was my last dance performance for 2012, I need to stay focusing on my studies and will have to face the big exam next month. Hopefully everything will be fine as I hoped it will. I didn't went to school this morning for some reason my head is still throbbing and it's paying the price for the hard rocking energy I've used for two days earlier. I got my abs back, it's no big deal. I'm having fun, a lot of fun that I've been longed for so long, to be dancing with my friends again. It wasn't supposed to be a big problem for me to stay attached with my hobbies but I understand. Well I should be focusing on my studies just like most of my colleagues, I'm freeing myself from all the school burden just because I didn't want give myself a stress, I hate 'stress'. It'd ruined my good times, my good day. I hate stress. Thinking that the next semester would be a little too much for me because knowing there would be bunches of school project and homework waiting. Yes I prefer calling them ''school project or homework'' because I thought I am too young to call them that way and calling them ''assignment''  is a little bizarre to me because I think some human still signify that word is only used by those who grew up and 'mature'. Have you ever heard the phrase that said '' some people never grow up'' ? I did, and indeed I am one of them. I am almost 18 years old and I act based of what I was built for, not based on my age, age is just a number. To be honest, I hate growing up, end of story. I have more than one dimension, which means this side of me which you've seen them all the times aren't the 'whole me', it's just some part of me. That's why sometimes I'd give it a damn to those who thought they know me much better than myself, I detest that so much because it chucks me up. The real things that I'd like to highlight here is, I act normal in the eye of some people, stranger and new people and sometimes in the internet and people will judge me by what they seen, physically, by what I'd probably typed, which is somewhat daft to me. I act somewhat call insane and 'normal myself' in the eye of my circles, certain people, close friends and my loved ones. There's so much more that I'd do and you'll never imagine and it's all out of your expectation. daft. I don't find the need to explain so much about me, you won't figure me out anyway. I'm a good actress, at least in my own world.

I'm living in my own kind of world with my own imaginary and fantasy accompanying me and I daresay until my very last breath.